Failed to go out on Saturday night again

Man, can you help me?

Last night I failed to go out on another Saturday night. I got stuck sitting down on my couch and watching TV again. This time I had two specific excuses.

The first one was that I wanted to watch the heavy-weight world champion boxing match between Wladimir Klitschko and Alexander Povetkin. And, the second excuse was that I had to go to the toilet often because I ate too many pears. Yeah, I know it sounds like a funny excuse but it really is true.

Anyway, there's something even deeper than these two excuses that I'd like to share with you today.

And, that deeper stuff is all about me questioning myself these days on whether I really enjoy going out and cold approaching random women in bars and clubs at nights. In other words, these days I've spent a lot of time re-thinking and reassessing my true passions in life.

And, guess what. I feel that going out to approach random hot women whether on the street during the daytime or at bars and clubs at nights is actually not what I really and truly enjoy.

Man, I know that you now may think that what I've just said is just another excuse of mine for not going out and meeting women. Anyway, the truth is that when you really don't enjoy something, then you don't enjoy it.

Call me a lazy man or a coward but I can tell you that even when I think of the possible situation of laying down a hot woman immediately after randomly approaching her somewhere in public, I feel that the very activity of me randomly approaching hot women in public and then having sex with them on the very same day is not something that makes me excited enough to think of that daily activity as part of my dream life's vision.

And, my dream life's vision is fully enjoying an international playboy or pornstar's lifestyle surrounded by super hot women that I meet and have fun with while being totally relaxed during my luxury and exotic trips.

Ready for a shocker?
I kind of find playfully having fun and sex with hot women like in porn movies more appealing to me than the daily routine of cold approaching random women to have sex with them sooner or later.

And, the truth is that my dream vision of me seeing myself wake up in a cosy luxury beach-front villa to see a super hot woman stretching half-naked in front of my eyes after having sex together is something that I prefer to relate to a pornstar's lifestyle rather than a pick-up artist's lifestyle.

Another reason why I find the pornstar's lifestyle more appealing to me than the pick-up artist's one is because of the fact that I really like the idea of not only getting paid but also having the possibility of having an automated online adult business while enjoying a lot of sex with many different hot women from around the world.

So, why exactly is the pornstar's lifestyle more appealing to me?

Well, to give you a clue, I've spent the last 20 years of my life being extremely excited about just having a wild and playful sex with super hot, model-like women. So, whatever I did and wherever I went during those last 20 years, I was always very actively day-dreaming about shagging hot women as playfully and wildly as in porn movies.

And, today I believe that this day-dreaming is actually the right reason why I have always been on the verge of my financial failure, being constantly dead broke. I worked in so many different 9-5 jobs and also many times tried to build my profitable online business but whatever I did, I always failed.

And, I constantly failed because I actually didn't enjoy any of those jobs and also didn't enjoy the idea of spending hours and hours sitting in front of the computer to try to build some kind of profitable online business that would support my dream inteernational playboy or pornstar's lifestyle.

The consequences of me not enjoying anything of that was that I was reported for sexual harrassment at a couple of jobs that I worked in and also everytime I started to build an online business around seduction or other non-porn related themes, soon I gave up because I was realizing over and over again that I would rather be enjoying a playful and wild sex with hot women and getting paid for it right now than spending countless hours at the computer and remaining dead broke.

Anyway, I hope that you now understand that the main reason why I am here sharing the intimate parts of my life is because I am now at the turning point in my life where I have to decide whether I really want to become a pick-up artist or a pornstar.

So, you can freely understand me writing this blog as my kind of last shot trying to find the truth on whether I really want to do the pick-up arts and seduction stuff ... with or without your help and feedback here.

By the way, as for the possibility of entering the porn business, I have lately taken the first essential steps towards it by having contacted an experienced porn videos producer.

Last but not least, I'd also like to tell you that I believe in God and tend to communicate with Him by simply asking Him some direct questions on what to do and whether to do this or that in situations where I am not quite sure what to do. And, I can tell you that many times I have lately felt that He's telling me to stop going out to cold approach random women in public and instead, to try out porn.

Finally, I'd like to say that my personal feeling is that having a profitable automated online adult (porn) business while traveling the world and meeting and playfully having an awesome sex with many different hot women at the same time is really something that's very close to my dream vision of enjoying an international playboy or pornstar's lifestyle supported by a profitable online business.

If you have anything to say, please feel free to do so by leaving your comment below. Anyway, if you have so far understood the purpose of me writing this blog, I guess that you won't be surprised if I never come back to this blog any longer. Because right now, all I am focused on is living and doing what I am really and truly passionate about.

So, I hope that you understand that the only purpose of me writing this seduction themed blog is to search for and find the real TRUTH on whether the seduction and pick-up arts stuff is really for me or not.

Bruno